I Let It Happen Again

BYU lost. I'm all emotional about it. Why do I do this to myself? Where is my catharsis?

...

But just think how sweet that win would've been...

Ok, so that thought makes it hurt all the worse, but that sweetness.. I mean, that sweetness.

I guess that's why I let this happen. Without risking emotional devastation...

...yeah, without that kind of devastation, there is no sweetness.

But also right now there is no sweetness. Just agony.

There is no joy in Mudville, etc.

Ok, I'm going to bed.